Recently, I've come across two great blog posts from two different bloggers on spiritual doubt. One blogger still considers herself a Christian, the other is well....I think he's not far from becoming an agnostic, though he hasn't declared quite yet what he believes.
Both of them in some ways sound much like me several years ago. Making the decision to leave one's faith or even just doubt/question it is much harder than most people would think. Most religious people have wrapped their entire lives and their identity around their religion.
First there's blogger "Heretic Husband", writer of the blog Confessions of a Heretic Husband, a great blog that I have
even wrote a guest post for, with his post
Confessions of a Spiritual Wanderer.
He's a former fundamentalist, and he talks about trying many different branches of Christianity, with varying levels on the extremism scale, but it's not working. He blames himself to some degree.
I want you to know, I've tried. I've really tried. I've tried Catholicism. I've tried Evangelical. I've tried Episcopal. They don't work for me. It's not the people. The people are fine for the most part. There are some bad apples in every barrel, of course, but I'm beginning to think the problem is me.
I'm like one of those people who is in failed relationship after failed relationship, desperate to find The One to spend the rest of their life with. One day, after another agonizing breakup, they realize that the only common denominator in every relationship is...them.
He talks about the guilt that often comes with questioning one's faith:
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