The Most Intense Guest Post I Have Ever Written

Now that I am in the process of moving forward in life, since I have bought my own house (closing was this past Thursday, June 20th, I now legally own it), I have realized that I still have a lot of work to do, not only on the house, but there's a lot of work to do emotionally as well. I've realized that if I am really going to move on in life, I have to confront my past, and start building networks of new people in my life.

Well, in the spirit of confronting my past, I recently wrote a guest post for the blog Confessions of a Heretic Husband (I really love the tagline under the blog's name "Everyone's a heretic to someone"). It's a guest post that was harder for me to write than anything I have ever written before, it's still hard for me to read. On this blog, I have generally been very open about my life, but there are some details of my life, especially from the last 5 years of my life, after that infamous nervous breakdown, that I haven't told anyone, either on this blog or in person. All of that changes today with this guest post.

It's not an exaggeration in the least to say that I have been held hostage for the last 5 years, it's hard to say, and humiliating as well. 

There was a time, about 3 years ago, that I attempted to leave my mom and dad's home, and my mom in response literally barricaded the door to keep me from leaving, knowing that if I tried to push past her, she would either become violent, or play the victim, and claim that I physically harmed her. Some abusers are really good at playing manipulative games like that, playing the victim to gain sympathy when they are the ones carrying out the abuse. 

Here are some excerpts from the post:

“Where are you going?” she kept asking over and over again, with defiance and a hint of amused contempt as she stood in the middle of the only doorway out of the room. 

Undercover Agnostic: (Update 12): Christmas in June

The real estate agent who is handling the sale of the house for me had some big surprises for me today. First of all, the closing will happen sometime next week. The vacation I had planned will have to wait, but that's not a big problem, actually. I still have the time off from work, and no plans were greatly wrecked by this. 

The second surprise that he had was that a relative of his had recently replaced all the windows in her house, and was going to get rid of the old ones, and didn't know what she would do with them.

Most of the windows in the foreclosure house I bought need replacing, and this will save quite a bit of money at a time when finances are already stretched. I bought a gift card for a local restaurant chain that is very well known for good pasta and fried chicken that I will give him when I see him again. I believe in giving credit where credit is due, but apparently my family doesn't. Though they were glad for the gift, and thanked the real estate again, for them it's all about praising god over and over and over, and counting it as a small miracle. 

It's kind of tiring to hear, but oh well....

I say thank those here on earth who do good things, and do all we can to make this world a better place for everyone, but that's just my opinion. ;)

Anyway, I still will be rather busy, even though I won't be out of state for vacation, and I don't think I will be posting more than once or twice a week to the blog for a while, until everything settles down. Not only will the house take some time, but I will have to plan for living post-fundamentalism.